Feeling Divine Love Every Day-A Story of Hope and Healing

Jul 14, 2011 | Sufism

I came to the Sufi University, not looking for Sufism and really had no idea what I was getting into. At the time, I had been sober for 7 years (it’s been ten now), was used to looking deeply at myself from my mind, and had explored several energetic healing paths where trauma is theoretically cleared from the body.

My personal experience with other energetic work was that the work was always fun, interesting, and cool. I liked learning about being a psychic and I liked opening my third eye and I liked the feeling of the angels and I like letting people mess with my energetic field. I loved all that. However, it never felt like anything actually changed for me in a lasting way. I would have a treatment, feel great for 20 minutes, and then find myself with no actual change or lasting improvement 20 minutes later. I wanted the treatments I received to make it easier for me to behave differently in my life. But they weren’t doing that for me.

In AA, I was taught that we have to “act our way into right thinking rather than trying to think our way into right acting.” This was a helpful saying for me and still is. At the same time, however, what I found was that it doesn’t matter how well I behave if I am still carrying around the pain and injury of the originating wounds. If I don’t get into those places in my being where the issue began, and move those things out, I’m behaving well and dying inside. That’s my personal experience. I have a low tolerance for pain so I suffered greatly at the hand of my own internal pictures, wounds and issues, and I wanted to find a way to clear them fully and completely.

When I had my first Sufi healing, I experienced the light of God in a way that completely dumbfounded me. My heart opened, the world opened, my being expanded, I felt loved like I’d never felt loved before. I don’t think I even knew what love WAS before that moment.

I came to the University because I tasted that light and knew it was going to be the source of my transformation. I’ve tried everything you can try. I’ve done therapy for 20 years and I’m only 33. You name it, I’ve tried it. Meditation for 6 years. Hitting things with bats, everything.

This path is not always easy, but it IS always profoundly effective. When I can accurately locate the real issue that is causing my suffering, I then use these healing techniques and prayers to bring the light of the divine into those places, and I am PROFOUNDLY altered.

Thanks to the University, I feel the love of the divine every day. The healings are the most profound healings that I’ve ever experienced. They’ve changed me like nothing else before them ever did.

~Katie Rubin, Actress, Playwright, Comedian, Healer

Year 1 Academic program begins November 2011.  Call Mary Halima at 954.923.7460 to see this program is right for you.