A Journey from Upheaval to True Happiness

Jan 29, 2011 | Sufism

How did my life get like this?

My life felt like a deck of 52 cards that had been thrown up in the air, scattered everywhere.   I didn’t know how to get it back in order.   In complete upheaval, I was at the lowest point of my life.   Then, I received a Sufi spiritual healing and it became clear on what was needed to put my life in order.

As I listened to the Sufi healer talk about her experiences at the Sufi University, something inside me said that this was the Highest possible thing I could do for myself.  I knew I had to go now and it was important to act right then rather than wait for everything in my life to line up.  I knew it was a turning point.

As a student at Sufi U, I found my purpose.  In the past, my happiness relied on people, places, and things.  For example,  if my children were happy, I was happy.  If my day at work went well, I would be happy.  My happiness was dependent upon other people’s emotions and the situation around me.

I had been a seeker and travelled many different spiritual paths but something in my heart was missing.  Nothing satisfied the deep longing in my heart; I was missing devotion to God.

I began to learn that my happiness was about laying a foundation with God first in my life by developing the connection to the divine love within me.  From this connection, everything else follows.  From this connection I began to receive the true Love which satisfied the longing in my heart.  This is now the Source of my happiness.

Now, no matter what happens in my life, I can go to this place in my heart and receive divine support, guidance, and love.  In my work as teacher, healer and massage therapist, I am able to serve and help others to find this same connection.  I am also able to support my family when they aren’t happy and not able to connect to the love within.

I’m not always in this place of divine connection, but now I have access to it and it takes much less time to re-connect and I am able to receive so that the divine love, peace, and oneness fills me and  lasts.    Before the happiness was fleeting.  Now it is more permanent and I have access to it no matter what is going on in my life.  This is true happiness and contentment.

~Bonnie Halima Gibson, teacher, healer, coach & massage therapist